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To be honest, I never thought this holiday to Langkawi Island will have a big impact towards my life. Last month was my holiday with my sister to the Island of tales. It was nice and fun~ simple and outgoing~ crazy and head blower time... hahaha.. :P

As for today I will leave a remarkable story of my own but somehow it feel like im in a love movie but produce by god.. yeah, it's true. First of all, the reason I went to Langkawi Island was to let go of my past about a guy I really love and admire, Mr.Nazrin J.... after four year he betrayed my love, now only I have the bravery to let go of the past he brought into my life. I want to have a new life ahead me. A life of my own without his shadow anymore. To ease all the pain i felt for four years for loving him more than i can give... and return as the same girl but in different perspective of live without a man called as "soulmate"... presenting : the single me.

On the 14th February 2012, which is also known as the Valentine day's (which of course I do not celebrate that particular occasion), my sister and I went for an Island Hopping to three island ; Pregnant Maiden Lake, Lang Island, and White Sand Island; we bump into a group of three guys. at first, one of the guy was talking to my sister and after a few minutes, the other two join us for a brief chatting. That's how I met a guy called as *Triple H (not a real name)...

(Cenang Beach at night )

Continuation in bahasa; :P

Somehow, I was surprise to find out my sister ada phone number one of the guy yang dia berborak tadi during the island hopping. ok, cepat giler~ then, my sister and I joined them for lunch and "lepaking" at their hotel afterwards. chit chatting and laughing till dinner time.. and not so long after that, we took a night walk at the Cenang Beach. aku pun mula rapat dengan mr.Triple H ni. kami share stories bout life and aku notice that he is a good guy. tengah berborak with him, all of sudden, ada bunga api a.k.a fireworks dibakar in front of us! I was stunned. A dream of many dream of mine came true that nite. to watch over a fireworks with someone at night next to a wonderful beach... wow~ im surprised. Apakah ini petanda dari tuhan?

Semakin hari aku mengenali mr.Triple H, aku dapat rasakan dia baik, caring, dan pandai menjaga perasaan perempuan. mengenali dia untuk tiga minggu ni, buat aku rasa macam mimpi. mimpi indah yang if possible aku tak nak terjaga. honestly, aku keliru dengan perasaan aku sendiri. dia dengan falsafahnya yang terluka enggan bercinta kali kedua setelah hampa dengan cinta agungnya. Aku pula, masih ada sisa kasih dan sayang pada lelaki yang ku cintai sejak di bangku sekolah lagi. Tambahan, siapalah aku? gadis seperti aku ni mana sesuai dengan lelaki sebaik dia kan.. aku sedar diri. dah kalau sedar diri, maknanya aku tak de la berharap untuk jadi seseorang yang special untuk dia. layanan dia yang baik dan sentiasa buat aku tersenyum pun dah cukup buat aku bahagia....

Dan, buat masa ni, aku hanya boleh konklusikan yang aku gembira dapat mengenali dia. lelaki terbaik yang pernah aku kenal. andai dia tahu apa yang aku rasa pada dia, mungkin dia akan mengelak dari berhubung dengan aku. tunggulah, mungkin bila aku dah bersedia untuk kehilangan perasaan ni sekali lagi, aku akan berundur dari kehidupan dia dan chill je la, hidup perlu diteruskan. Mr.past of my life, dah berlalu, now its time for me to go n strive for the future ;D gambate linda san! ngehehehehe :P

Biar persoalan ni tinggal sebagai persoalan selamanya coz aku tak nak fikir soal cinta. If dia takut terluka kali kedua setelah break up dengan Miss.B, aku pula takut kehilangan diri aku untuk kali kedua setelah aku kehilangan mr.Nazrin J... biarlah rahsia jadi rahsia dan if suatu hari nanti ditakdirkan aku dan dia terpaksa berundur dari satu sama lain, sekurang-kurangnya, aku akan pergi dengan hati terbuka. dia kekasih gelapku.. my mr.Dutch monkey and the only one. who is he to me? he is the one i care for now till the "ending" of our story.. n if only u know, betapa I rindukan u~ haha :)